I want peace. I apologize

[MilesAtma_Redux]

Ok for the record, i have a bad temper, and i don't like to feel as if I am being treated as if I'm an idiot.  but, sometimes i misinterpret words on chat, and sometimes, i am in fact, and idiot.



i wrote this cause i want peace on hg, and i understand egos and interpersonal conflict, and I will admit, that I am in the wrong most times.   I just want peace.


I react to perceived slights because that is my nature, and i will work on that too.



in the future, my strategy will be to just ignore perceived threats or slights.   just want to say that for the record.  I will also do my very best not to curse on shout -- I am thankful I have not been banned, cause I have already received an official warning and still cursed twice out of reaction.  


Going to work on not reacting as a policy no matter how I feel.



I love this server and all its folks and will try to be a better hg'er


Miles

[chirality]

Feb 14, 2019 17:48:39 GMT MilesAtma_Redux said:

I will also do my very best not to curse on shout -- I am thankful I have not been banned, cause I have already received an official warning and still cursed twice out of reaction.  

mmm yeah i think a better idea might be to just avoid the shout channels, period.

especially if you're not sober. just ask yourself, "is there a good possibility i'm kinda wasted atm?" and if the answer is prolly yes, then just avoid the chats.

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I would appreciate a personal apology.

[MilesAtma_Redux]

sure; i personally apologize rockmonsta -- i am embarrassed that i don't know you or why I should apologize: but i am sorry.

and yes, i have drinking problem 2 weeks out of the month..  as i get wasted  -- i turn into barbarian and unleash repressed slights.  it's my issue and i will definitely work on it.


I am passive aggressive.   


It's no excuse, just the truth.



Miles

[manuka]

That's your crush miles:0

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Rockmonsta = RayCoolJ

[MilesAtma_Redux]

oh man, i am very sorry to you ray; and very sorry to you prep; yo uboth try to boost my skills, but i take the advice as insults; its my fault and it wont happen again


ok the best way i can put this:  

I have high level of self-efficacy:  meaning I like to think I can figure stuff out on my own.


And prep and ray are lke my parents and they like to watch out for me and teach me how to do it best in the most efficient way.



And to me, this disables my ego and so I feel like a robot so I rebel.  but its not their fault cause they only want to help;

and i understand that cause I do the same thing for those newer players I meet.



Damn, sorry...

[Terankar]

honestly, if someone is calling you an idiot, I would call them out myself.

if that is the case, then no issue.

[MilesAtma_Redux]

Thanks: to be fair this is what i Know: prep and ray and neggy et all are stellar players: i like to do stuff my own way cause have dif player combos and styles.
To be clear: Prep and Ray and Neggy are better than me and its cool. They are experienced and fudging awesome!!!!!!!!!!!!


i do know this: prep and ray are VERY successful, so i do not disparage them at all. They were first to eat the dogfood; and fudge, too bad in wasn't me (cause of ego)


I will say this though: What I LOVE about HG is that is always changes.. so maybe today or tomorrow my builds will get props.


I usually do not post my builds because of the 'force of tides rule'. When dm's find a build kicks arse, they change server dynamics. So I forgo fame for effectiveness. just saying

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I find it ironic that you refrain from posting builds yet don't have that restraint on !chat.

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[Lil' Mikey (Msowby2)]

Feb 14, 2019 20:04:22 GMT MilesAtma_Redux said:

Thanks: to be fair this is what i Know: prep and ray and neggy et all are stellar players: i like to do stuff my own way cause have dif player combos and styles.
To be clear: Prep and Ray and Neggy are better than me and its cool. They are experienced and fudging awesome!!!!!!!!!!!!


i do know this: prep and ray are VERY successful, so i do not disparage them at all. They were first to eat the dogfood; and fudge, too bad in wasn't me (cause of ego)


I will say this though: What I LOVE about HG is that is always changes.. so maybe today or tomorrow my builds will get props.


I usually do not post my builds because of the 'force of tides rule'. When dm's find a build kicks arse, they change server dynamics. So I forgo fame for effectiveness. just saying

A warranted apology is not needed due to you being a garbage player, it is the way you talk in !chat and address specific people who do not deserve that sort of abuse. I keep close tabs on the hg dash because it's my homepage (some habits never die) and you should be damn ashamed of yourself the way you have talked to people in the past, Ray especially. Ultimately your behaviors is going to deter people from playing with you because at least tactics (in most cases) can be learned and adjusted after due time. I suggest you get a handle on your own personal habits and refrain from playing nwn while drinking to avoid using channels such as shout.